There was a death in the family a few days ago my sis-in-law's (I introduced her to my brother since she and I were friends first) ex-husband died in the bathroom alone, in his assisted living residence. There was a very unique relationship that developed in that my brother, the new husband, and the ex got along and became good friends. They would go out and have lunch or chat, that is not a very common occurrence. So it is very sad time for all.
Today also makes the two week anniversary, June 16,
since my best friend and companion died in my arms.
So all in all I am not in the best of spirits, my one refuge since I have had a hard time reading for awhile now(due to my inability to focus) is watching TV, trust me there aren't too many uplifting and funny things there. Can't garden due to heat and meds with heat etc.
All the people who "cared and worried" so much when I was on twitter and was an available cause for them stopped communicating in any form. I deleted my account and then I get "oh why did you delete your account" seriously folks I am forty fucking eight I have seen too many deceivers, usurpers and liars that I can spot them right away unfortunately my weakness and vulnerability due to illness a few people slipped under the radar. I doubt they will ever read this but trust me YOU are the primary reason I deleted my twitter account that and all the BS going on. I prefer the handful of true blue people who are loving and genuine (and give tough love when needed but trust me right now is not the time to give it)
It has been said:
"It's not the destination, but the journey that counts"
Okay so what if there is no destination, does that mean there is no journey thus implying no life or life lessons learned? What if just living is the destination? Well hell if that is the case I have learned a lot of shit I didn't need to. There are great examples listed below(hint look for the word narcissism)
A little sarcasm here, But could there be anymore reality shows out there? Anytime I talk to anyone they say no I don't watch that BS well someone must be watching them cause they are still on the air and reproducing like rabbits. Have we lost the ability to live our own lives and be content or must we watch how other people live and live vicariously through them? I wonder is it to make themselves feel better to see other people doing better and or maybe worse off than them. Do I care if you can Dance, Sing, Sing in a group ummmmmmmm NO!!!!! So don't look for my vote....
OMG can TNT have ANY more commercials (Lord knows I am thankful for DVR's.)? I can see why so many shows get renewed they have a lot of sponsors out there who want them to succeed, lots of money to be made, in them there commercials. I have seen commercial/trailers, (don't know what they are called) for hoarders, intervention, and the how different stars live their lives. I could care less, they have no impact on my life. Wait I missed my favorite, all the talk in the hospital by the nurses is The Bachelorette. So lets all go out and get on lets see hmmm, Eharmony, match,plenty of fish, Jdate, I am sure I have missed a few and or for the religious at heart not judging just sharing chrisitiansingles all followed by .com.
Throwing in some levity just to keep you going.
I must stress that this is only my opinion.
Now as far as entertainment is concerned we have lost that all the way around. I wonder what Charlie Chaplin would say if he saw the Entertainment Industry today.
There is nothing out that compares to (dating myself) The Ed Sullivan Show, Sonny & Cher, Tom Jones(hold on picturing him taking off his bow tie Oh My), Carol Burnett, Hee Haw and Laugh-In for entertainment shows. I think you get the picture. I believe it was called Family Television but that was a different time I guess.
Here are you tube videos that are good ole family fun:
Lily Tomlin: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k9e3dTOJi0o
I must stress Again that this is only my opinion.
There are no true entertainers/artists out there that come close to Danny Kaye, Bob Hope, Dean Martin, Sammy Davis Jr., Gene Kelly, Debbie Reynolds. I could go on but I won't; those of you who understand know who the others are, those who don't understand it will not matter. These people could do it all sing, act, dance and stand-up, truly entertain people.
Apart from Peter Jackson(& a select few others, I am a Lord of the Rings girl) have we lost all our creative talent in this world can't say Hollywood since people are moving all over. We may not have had the technology 10 -20 years ago but we had creativity and imagination. (Wait imagination get the Ritalin it can't be imagination it is always ADHD) Does anyone remember just lying on the grass and staring at the clouds and making up what they looked like to them, rabbit, train :)? So what happens now, they are remaking movies because there is new dazzling technology to jazz them up. Seriously?
Since I have been house bound I can tell you more about narcissism, psychopaths and psychotic breaks than I ever wanted to even know. There are almost as many of these types of shows as there are Reality Shows. I have also learned all kinds of ways for weak women/men to kill people twice their size. I even checked to see if what I was watching was just made up nope looked on internet and they are legit.
So what does all this ranting boil down to:
Don't tell me we all have problems but it will be ok because there is no way to tell. No two people walk in the same shoes so what weighs heavy on one person soul doesn't necessarily weigh or even matter to the other. Don't tell me to hang on, it will be fine, the sun will come out tomorrow because I ain't Annie. There are no guarantees and for me folks it definitely isn't about the fucking journey or destination. Oh one last rant I am soooooooooo tired of when I tell someone something sad they feel the need to out do me by having a similar tragedy or event. That is one way of keeping up with the Jones that needs to be flushed, truth be told all the ways should be flushed. Then the same person tells me that I should try to stay focused, be positive and happy. Well hell if you surrounded by crap your gonna smell like crap. So go figure this out if I am down and all you do is try to compete with me about how bad everything is, how exactly do you expect me to be happy? Friendship folks for me is sharing good and bad. I don't expect for my friends to always be sunshine and joy because life gets in the way. The key is sharing both good and bad which means some days are up and others down. If all your days are nothing but consistent downers please don't expect me to jump for joy because I can't. One reason being your friend means that I care for you and Second reason if everything is bad for you and hurting, I will feel hurt for you as well.
So for me folks it is about trying to stay positive. The latest sliver of sunshine I have had is the birth of my adopted little sisters, across two oceans, new and first nephew. She knows how to share the good and the bad. Sometimes it is all good and sometimes not so much but she is a good person with a big heart. Her nephew will be seriously spoiled. I have a few people who have shown me great support you know who you are and I am grateful for your love and all you have done for me from rescue remedy to castor oil :). I have another good friend who is across one ocean but visits the USA with all that has transpired in the past six months in her family and country she still takes time to say Hi. She once got a shout out from me many, many months ago when she was being ignored and she has been by my side since. She says I am special folks. I love her but she sees me through rose colored glasses. It is time for a new RX.
To those of you who love me back at ya and those who don't or are talking and doing shit against me or anyone else I wish you love and Blessings also because Karma is a serious bitch.
Please do feel free to comment.
Peace Out
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